Am I good enough?
If you’re here, you might be wondering who I am. Well, I’ve been trying to figure that out for a long time.
As far back as I can remember, I was asked, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
The adults and world I looked to for guidance assured me that it’s what I do that earns me love and acceptance.
So I ran around working really hard to be a lot of things… daughter, student, doctor, wife, mom, Christian, author, coach, healer.
And because I never felt that what I did or who I was was good enough, I just kept trying harder.
I gave up everything trying to prove my worth in a world that was hell-bent on convincing me I wasn’t good enough.
I married a man who was abusive because I believed I didn’t deserve better.
I spent years training to be a doctor because I believed that helping people would make me worthy.
I became obsessed with the bible and following the rules of a religion because I was desperate to prove to God I was worthy of love.
I read nearly every self-help book, went to therapy, psychics, energy healers, and retreats, all in an attempt to fix myself so that I would finally feel enough.
And I spent gobs of money on certifications in trauma, breathwork, coaching, energy healing, and other myriad things because I was convinced that I didn’t have enough knowledge or experience to actually help people.
Although I learned a lot and met a bunch of amazing people, I still felt a giant hole inside myself.
Will I ever feel like I’m okay?
But then astrology, breathwork, and mushrooms came into my life. Through these beautiful tools, I began to rebuild my relationship with my body by feeling the pain I had stuffed down, revisiting old stories that kept me stuck, and expanding my awareness of what love really is.
I began to understand that the voice inside of me that was on repeat: “YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH. TRY HARDER. DO MORE!” was never mine.
Astrology taught me that I have seven placements in the Zodiac sign of Virgo… the sign that, when unbalanced, tells us we are never enough.
This energy is the worst inner critic and most judgmental, demanding task master, unless it is balanced with its complementary sign of Pisces. And I had SEVEN placements in this energy.
Even if you don’t understand astrology, you can see that would be a lot.
So, during this time, I consistently did breathwork and microdosed psilocybin, while using astrology to better understand myself and the hidden things I hadn’t been able to see.
Over time, the voices stopped controlling my life.
I felt more present in my body, able to feel and express my emotions, and more aware of the stories running around in my mind.
My relationships, sleep, work, and overall well-being drastically improved.
After decades of searching for love and acceptance, I finally came home to the truth that I am enough.
As we step into a new era of healing and a new way of experiencing our humanity, I believe it’s time we remembered that we are the embodiment of Love on Earth.
I bring astrology, breathwork, psychedelics, and nature to the women I serve because they remind us that everything we need is already within us.
It’s an honor and a joy to bring 30 years of wisdom and experience to support women, like you, in their healing, awakening, and transformation journey.